This time almost 12 months ago…
We were still in Singapore, the (then) 4 of us squeezing in one tiny room in my parent’s HDB flat. We were living out of boxes and our clothes were in Togoyo plastic containers, as most of our stuff were already packed and ready to be carted over to Sydney. Our house was just renovated, and smelling all new-paint and new-everything else. I was heavily pregnant with Zoie. Dreaming of carrying my princess in my arms (and getting rid of that whale-belly). I was happy to finally have my husband back in Singapore, after 7 long, long weeks of him coming over to Sydney by himself to start on his PhD journey. Finally – someone to take over bedtime duties. And my aching feet could find some small relief. We were squeezing in more last-minute meet-ups and dinners and coffees and such.
It is surreal how long and short one year seems, all at once.
Do I miss Singapore?
You betcha. My family, close friends, cell group members, colleagues, blogger moms… I reckon I am not really the sort to make friends too easily. I mean, we do hang out with friends here in Sydney, and I enjoy their company. But… (and it’s not them, it is me – like some clichéd break-up line) it is so different.
This week, I registered the entire family for the Presence Conference. I enjoyed it, and the kids did too – with the really top-notch children’s programs lined up. And it struck a chord in me. The sessions were good, and I really enjoyed the teaching, and I went away being refreshed and all… but what I really missed was when I was not just a delegate attending the sessions, but part of the church staff running the Asia Conference back in CHC Singapore in 2008/2010. The crazy schedules. The crazily packed schedules, to be exact. And while I appreciate the fact of being able to sit back and relax in between sessions with a cup of flat white, I also miss being busy. Being a part of a team. After being a cell leader for about 14 years, and being a staff of CHC for 10 years, I have always been involved in the church in ways both big and small, and I miss the “high-gear” way of life. Especially with the chill and laid-back atmosphere here Down Under.
So it has been almost one year. Already? Only?!?
I remember the hubby asking me (a year ago) if I would consider staying on in Australia, to which my reply was, “Uh… No.” And his response was “You underestimate Australia.” And my retort was, “You underestimate me.” This is a true conversation we had! Haha! And a year on, it still holds true. Yes, Australia has great appeal. The gorgeous beaches, the weather, the friendly and gracious people (even my sub-par driving skills have rarely garnered me a honk on the road), the easy education system… but to me, Singapore is where my heart resides. Where my family and friends are. It sure isn’t perfect, and it sure is stressful. But… Home is home is home. And I look forward to having a nice hot cup of… teh-si soon.